R & R DONE!

Today Tony went back to the sand pit. HUGE shout out o the USO, Jamie, and of course the Huggin' and Kissin' Grandmas for all the love and support.

It is amazing how a house could feel so lonely in a few short hours. I think the worst part is looking around and sing the unfinished laundry I started while he was home. The clean clothes of Tony's I need to hang up. The load of wash that he started before he left BUT forgot to put the lid down on the washing machine :)! His blanket is still in his chair, our Wii remotes right where we left them, and his side of the sink is empty. This is the worst part.

We spent so much time together and I think the longest we were apart for the last 2 weeks was when either of us went to the bathroom! Make every moment count. I love my Tony more than anything and I truly hope the next 8 months go FAST! I pray he comes home early. R & R is done which means the countdown is on. Next stop Ft. Riley, Kansas and than home!

Why....

I cannot believe this has happened???? How does a Major in the Army do this?? So what you do not want to deploy...a lot of people do not. Suck it up! This is what you signed up for! I was very upset that Tony was leaving but I did not go shoot people. I cannot believe he is still alive. The worst part is how do you keep this from happening again. It was pointless. These poor soldiers who were on their way to do something great were killed by an AMERICAN on AMERICAN soil. What intelligence report helps with that?

I still have not told Tony about this. I know he will have many questions. The former Fort Hood Chaplain is on the news right now talking about the stress of deployment. We have a a volunteer Army. I knew what I signed up for when I fell in love with Tony and he knew what he signed up for when he signed on the dotted line. Hopefully we will know why MAJ Hasan did this. I think many need to know why.

My USO Tour!

I kept telling Tony that Iraq was HOT!!! I do not think that he believed me that it was THAT hot. We were in Kuwait for the 4th of July. I have never seen so much sand and been so hot in my entire life. It was worth every moment to see the faces of those soldiers. We had radar locked on my helicopter and it was very scary. For one brief second I put myself in the position that our loved ones are in every day. I think I was always destined to marry a soldier.
Here I am with 12 of my closest girlfriends....

P.S....I Love You

Funny how little things remind you of the one you love. It could be as simple as a scent or as emotional as a movie or song. I just saw that Ratatouille was on tv tonight. I remember Tony telling me that he went to see that movie. He told me this when we first started dating and at the time i thought it was odd....but than I got to know Tony:)

Before Tony left he bought me the new fragrance from Bath and Body Works, P.S....I love you. He bought me the sample lotion and the wall flowers for the bedroom. He had one request, I use the wall flowers in our bedroom. I put them in last weekend. I LOVE the scent! I went back and bought the candle, body lotion, and body mist. I am burning the candle right now. Normally I associate a smell with an event or a time in my life. I have always found it interesting how you can smell a fragrance years later and recall a particular memory or event that happened years before. I will forever associate Tony, our love, and this time apart with P.S.....I love you.

Home sweet home

Tex, Murphy, and I just got "moved" back into our house. I have been at mama and daddy's since a week ago Friday when I had my surgery. I miss them already! Whoever said you can't go home did not have my mama and daddy. I love going back to the house that I grew up in. I am so close to my parents and Tony was very smart to buy us a house so close to them...especially while he was gone. Thanks to mama and daddy, their love, and nursing skills I am all better!!!!!

I go to the doctor tomorrow and get to see what my stomach looks like!!! I am a little nervous. This whole experience has been a little scary. I was very nervous about getting cut open and pain!!! I wish Tony could have been here in person for me BUT he was with me every step of the way.

Court's B-Day

Yesterday was Courtney's birthday at Mama's Pizza. We had a great turnout and Court and i had a little helium....

Surgery

Tomorrow I get to have my gall bladder taken out! YAY...I think! Hopefully I wil shed a few pounds and be able to eat Italian food again:) I wish Tony were here and so does he. We talked about doing the surgery before he left so he could take care of me. We decided not to because than our last few days together would not have been as fun as they were.

I got to talk to Tony a few times today. When he called this morning I was on the verge of tears. I guess that will happen time to time. There are some moments that hit me harder than others. Yesterday was a hard day for him. I know that he left Kuwait at some point today and I do not know where he is going or when he will be there. That part sucks. I am hoping he will be able to call me before my surgery. I am taking Tony jr. to the hospital.....Tony jr. is my build-a-bear that we did before he left. When I push his paw I get a special Tony message.