Surgery

Tomorrow I get to have my gall bladder taken out! YAY...I think! Hopefully I wil shed a few pounds and be able to eat Italian food again:) I wish Tony were here and so does he. We talked about doing the surgery before he left so he could take care of me. We decided not to because than our last few days together would not have been as fun as they were.

I got to talk to Tony a few times today. When he called this morning I was on the verge of tears. I guess that will happen time to time. There are some moments that hit me harder than others. Yesterday was a hard day for him. I know that he left Kuwait at some point today and I do not know where he is going or when he will be there. That part sucks. I am hoping he will be able to call me before my surgery. I am taking Tony jr. to the hospital.....Tony jr. is my build-a-bear that we did before he left. When I push his paw I get a special Tony message.

The Primetime Emmy's

I am FINALLY watching the Primetime Emmy awards. I really like Neal Patrick Harris as a host. Who would have thought Doogie Howser...

I really like Tina Fey. I have never watched Pushing Daisies but this girl Krisin Chena-whatever is very cute and she could totally fit in your pocket. Oh and apparently I will not since it is no longer on the air!
YAY!!!! Jon Cryer won best supporting actor for Two and a Half Men. Love that show.
What is "THE UNITED STATES of TARA"???? Toni Collette??? Never heard of her and she won best actress. Should have been 30 Rock, Julia Louis, or Christina Applegate...I think even Justin Timberlake was suprised.

Ok done blogging about boring crap.

WOW.....

I just read Jamie's post, Caroline's post, posts from Jodi and jg07. Thank you all for your support. This military family is more amazing than I could ever have imagined. Since Tony is on such a small team that left out of Ft. Riley, Big Red One, there is not a local FRG to stay connected with. I feel like a have a new family right here. So thank you to my USO Girls and to my new blog friends.

Clearing my OWN room!

So tonight I get home from mama and daddy's at 9pm and the house is dark. The alarm is on. I enter the house and turn it off and notice what sounds like running water. I walk to the bottom of the stairs and realize it is coming from upstairs. I turn the lights on and reset alarm and go to the bedroom and get the..................gun! I realize that this is my moment. I get to walk up the stairs and see what or who is up there and find out why or what is making the water run. EXCITING! The gun and I creep up the stairs, back against the wall, you know like in the movies. A quick turn to the left and a flip of the lights an a quick spin into the room upstairs. I imagine this is how Tony must clear rooms in Iraq. Except I am not in a 4 more stack....I am missing my back up. The room is clear. I creep into the bathroom fling open the closet door without turning my back to the shower (never leave yourself vulnerable). I than turn on the light and throw back the shower curtain and......nothing. Apparently the ball that stops water from over flowing in the tank finally rusted and broke. The toilet was running and trying to fill more water. I found the culprit! Mission ACCOMPLISHED! I cleared the room! Tony would be so proud!

Suck-A-Tude

My new word. Definition: An attitude of suckiness....that is how I feel right now. I only got to talk to Tony once today when he called from Bulgaria.

I do not think that it has hit me yet that he is really gone for at least 6 months before he gets leave. I keep thinking that he will be home in a month......Everybody keeps asking me if I am OK and I feel like I should be crying or going crazy, but I am not. Should I be? Am I in denial or is this normal? Mom says my best defense is to not think about it. I think it will hit me in about 30 days....that is the longest we have been apart in 2 years. So for now I will sulk in my suckiness!

Embrace the suck!

This is a new phrase that Tony taught me. I have been repeating this phrase all day today. I had no choice tonight but to fold and put up his clean clothes....Emma (cleaning lady) comes tomorrow. I also had to unload the dishwasher which made me cry and I had to load the dishwasher with all the dishes that we have used the past few days which also made me cry. YES clean and dirty dishes made me emotional tonight!!!

I did get to talk to Tony many times today. He left this evening on plane to Wisconsin. He called me around 8pm and they were on a base and picing up some Air Force people and than headed to New Hampshire. He said the planeis a comercial liner that has 3 seats on one side and 3 on the other. I am hoping he gets 3 seats to himself so he can lay down. After New Hampshire they will go to Iceland and than to Bulgaria and than Kuwait. You would thin there wuld be a more direct way to go. When I traveled to Kuwait, we left from DFW and went through Boston to London to Kuwait.

I did get a wonderful suprise today.....beautiful flowers delivered to work!

Everything in this house reminds me of Tony. I have no choice in the matter nor do I have the power to tell the Army "I am sorry Tony is not available for Iraq....please check back with us NEVER!" So....... I must EMBRACE THE SUCK!

I am a sentimental idiot....

The day has finally come. Tony left on a plane today for Kansas and will leave tomorrow for Kuwait. I came home from he airport and started crying my eyes out when I saw the sweet post it notes attached to my desktop computer. I went into the bedroom and continued to cry when I saw the remote still on his side of the bed. I looked at Tex and realized that he is going to be upset for the next 2..maybe 3 weeks because he cannot find his daddy. So....i continued to cry even harder.Now the idiot part. When Tony left I was folding all of his clean clothes and they are stacked up on the couch so I moved them to the kitchen table. Now I do not want to finish folding or put them away because I want the house to stay the exact same way it was when he left. So I am a sentimental idiot. I am going to go eat some chocolate cake and try not to move anything.